It is so easy for people to love you at your best, but what happens when they see you at your worst? This is bound to happen eventually, even if it takes years, and if it does take years, then what? One can only hope that you get the support needed, but you never know – this is when true colours are shown.
I support the arts, I love the arts – I am artsy! What can I say, while I was working in the business world, I was always craving something else, “what was missing?” I would ask myself? As it turned out, it was my artistic side that was not being fueled.
Working with artistic types is so different. So much passion for what they do, in fact I have so much passion for what I do (or am trying to do) now.
As I add another year to this ongoing saga I like to call my life (yup, another birthday), I look back to see what I have learned and all the experiences I have had. Sometimes it is hard to see all the good that has happened because life has thrown so many challenges my way – I never imagined how much I could be tested over such a short period of time, “why me?” I often ask myself.
Some friends have commented that they don’t know how I have managed to keep it together, I also wonder myself. Sometimes I think about “Karma” (the idea of Karma I will leave for another day) and wonder if I must have been a complete a-hole in my past life, other times I think that I am being tested for something great – at this rate I expect that I am going to save the world sometime in the future!
I have written before about personal growth and pushing oneself in order to grow. This has been my mantra and so far I feel that I have been doing this.
After completing my first acting course (Acting Level 1) last summer I could really feel how much I had grown. During Acting Level 2 this winter, I noticed that I was now often the first to volunteer for an exercise – this was the complete opposite of my first course where I was afraid to make a fool of myself. The end goal of this level was to perform in scene in front of friends and family. Mine was a scene from “The Prisoner of Second Avenue”, the scene where a husband and wife find out that their apt has been robbed.
I have been told that I am too idealistic, and a dreamer. Is it wrong to be this way? This is in relation to all aspects of my life, whether it be relationships, friendships or work.
I spent several years in Investment Banking, the work was interesting, money was good but ultimately left after 8 years and never looked back. Why did I leave? I honestly did not like the person I was turning into.
I was raised to believe that anything is possible, the sky is the limit. My parents always believed that I could achieve whatever I wanted provided I set my mind to it.
This type of encouragement was great as a kid – parents having so much faith in their child. Although sometimes they could not understand why I did not get straight “As” in school (I was a late bloomer!). I found that with this upbringing I set the bar high as I believed it was achievable with hard work and a bit of luck.